Laura Vegas

first i have to show you some pics of the girls that i’ve been spending my days with:

these are my "main 5" … i also have ariana one or two days a week, ayana stops by from time to time, and our 2 new daycare kiddos (which i need to get some pics of … and get permission to share them). but these 5 girls have been together for years. well … ady for just a year, since she’s only a year old. lol! the 4 older ones are all off school this month … so it’s been busy and loud around here.

which i think is part of the reason i’m feeling a little break coming on. just a small break from blogging .. maybe a week or two. i know i was just missing for a few days … so what’s a week, really?!?! lol! but just telling you that i’m taking a break feels like a relieve … i won’t have that nagging feeling of "oh, need to update the blog".

i’m just feeling overwhelmed by life these days. not sure why. just everything piled together i think. i was reading another blog today and this gal was talking about having a lack of focus. that’s me. i’m having a hard time being productive … don’t seem to get much done. but i have plenty of things i need to do … ideas i want to work on. just can’t seem to focus on anything long enough to accomplish anything. my mind just goes and goes … and yet that’s as far as i get.

so what is overwhelming me? could be any of these things:

• girls off track … need i say more?
• daycare kids a good majority of my day … wanting things, needing things, demanding things. lol!
• sarah’s softball and joe’s umpiring … not really all that bad, but still a lot of scheduling
• alyssa’s soccer … which i just found out is going to be EVERY weekend, instead of the once a month i thought we signed up for
• i have a ton of photos that i need to go through, organize, edit, and print … i thought i had a system down, but it’s gone all to heck
• i have a house that really needs some deep cleaning … especially my blinds that have about an inch of dust on them
• i have laundry piled up again … i thought i just got done with the loads from last week
• i feel so couped (spl?) up in this house … nothing like being stuck at home to make you feel like you need to get out
• constant fighting with sarah … we butt heads to easily that any small task turns into a fight
• i’m behind on my shows … with the girls off school they go to bed a little later, which cuts into what little tv time i have
• havn’t been feeling all that great lately … same aches and pains i’ve had for the last 9 months … think it’s just getting old now. although i don’t complain much … doesn’t really do me any good.
• need to scrapbook … actually more like want to scrapbook. i finished up my assignments for march … so i really have to obligations until the end of april.

i’m sure there’s more. and really it’s just normal stuff. everyday things just overwhelm me lately. i’ve always been the kind to do 73 things at a time … i would multi-task like nobody’s business. but not anymore. i’ve got so much stuff going on in my head … but i can’t focus on anything. i swear i have ADD … seriously. lol! and lately i actually get to the point where i feel like i’m barely hanging on. like i can’t breathe. my days seem so long … like they’re never going to end.

i actually hate even writing that. it sounds so silly really. i don’t want to worry anyone. it’s not that serious. just not feeling like "me" … whoever that is. feel like i need to make some changes … but not sure what they are. i also have a doctors appointment scheduled next week. i really havn’t been to the doctors since my big diagnosis last year … so maybe there are other things going on, or something that needs adjusting. we just switched insurance carriers … so i feel like i have to start over with all this stuff.

anyways … see how random those thoughts were?!?! lol! i won’t even tell you how long that took me to type up … in between checking on sarah, making dinner, dishes, and picking up alyssa from soccer. each time i get up i lose my train of thought. lol!

point to all this is that i’m taking a small break from the blog. maybe i’ll post a few pictures. maybe i won’t. and trust me … i’ll be back. one week … two weeks tops. i have to have somewhere to post all these random thoughts … and my blog is where they usually end up. lol! hopefully i’ll come back refreshed and focused! wish me luck!