Laura Vegas

i know i have so much in life to be grateful and thankful for. but for right now … i need to vent a little. so i have 3 things to gripe about .. and then i’ll have nothing but happy stuff for the rest of the week. lol!

first the slumber party. i know you’re all dying to know how the slumber party went. alyssa had 6 friends come for her party. she had a couple of friend that didn’t come … and they told her at school on monday that they "forgot". how sad is that? and she was just at one of their slumber parties the weekend before. anyways … the party went pretty good. i think the highlight was when i walked the 8 girls down to my brother’s house to watch a movie in his huge "theatre" room. it really is just like a theatre … i won’t go into details right now … but trust me. the low point was probably the fighting later in the evening. yep … fighting at a slumber party. who would have thought?!?!

maybe it’s one of the negative perks of doing daycare for a living in your house … you come to realize that all kids annoy you when they’re around too much. lol! i’m so used to hearing the bickering, fighting, and mean-ness (is that even a word?) that comes with having a few girls together every day. so i think i’m more sensitive to it … i hate to listen to it … and i don’t want to put up with it. i wanted to put everyone in their place … and yet i didn’t feel like i knew some of them well enough to do just that. and part of me didn’t even want to mention it here or bring it up … because i know the mom’s read my blog. lol! so i’m totally not naming names … and i really don’t want to cause any trouble or blame anyone. this is truly just good ole’ venting … "blog style", since this is where i put my thoughts. i swear.

it was really just too many girls trying to be in charge … trying to make too many rules … and trying to boss each other around. and that never works … never. there was yelling … there were some "shut up" phrases tossed around. we even had someone who had no interest in the party at all. and poor alyssa … i really felt bad. she is so much like me … avoids trouble at any cost. she let’s others do what they want and walk all over her … even if it’s not ok with her (yep … totally like me). she just kept sitting there letting everyone else try and rule the show … and she would just say "it’s fine". the poor girl even ended up sleeping way on the side by the bathroom. isn’t the party girl supposed to be in the middle of all the fun?

i kept telling everyone "this is alyssa’s party". i know that may have embarrased her. but i was really upset … and i just kept thinking that this would be the part of the party that she would remember most. the bad part. i hope not … but i’m afraid so. because it’s all i’ve thought about. i wanted her to have an awesome night with some of her favorite people. and i know she had fun too … but that whole thing really put a damper on things.

on to the second thing … my leg. you remember i did something to my leg about 6 weeks ago? i was actually saying it was my knee … but i feel like i should say my leg now. because it’s not the knee itself … it’s the stuff behind the knee. all that muscle or whatever is back there. and remember the doctor said there didn’t seem to be anything wrong? well … that doctor must have been an idiot. because there is definatley something wrong. i have about 10% degree of movement. ok … i don’t think that made any sense. lol! basically i can bend my knee about 4 inches total … i can’t straighten it out … but i can’t bend it either. i can’t put pressure on it … i can’t balance on my left leg. you should see me climb the stairs. lol! i can feel something pulling in there … almost feels like i tore something.

and you should see me getting around. i basically spent half my day on the floor with the kids … and the other half picking up and carrying kids. i was joking with joe today about it. i can’t bend down to pick the babies up. when i am holding them … i can’t get back down on the floor while holding them because i can’t bend my leg. and when i am down on the floor … i can’t get back up while holding them. don’t get me wrong … i do it. but i’m not sure how sometimes. 

long story made semi short … i’m a mess. i swear i’m calling and making another doctors appointment … with a real doctor this time. lol! and i’m demanding an x-ray. of course … when exactly can i get to the doctors? i have no idea. i’m so trapped here sometimes … can’t even get out to the doctors. lol! i know i can call my mom and she’ll watch the kids … i do have her help sometimes. but i always feel bad leaving so many kids with anyone. that’s why whenever i do make an appointment for anything … i try and make it when i have the least amount of kids … and the easiest kids. but when you have 8 different daycare kids to work around (including a new baby) … it’s hard. and my days are 10-11 hour days … so that doesn’t leave much time. and then there’s soccer and all that other stuff in the evening. and joe has to work and sleep. we’ll see how well the scheduling person can work with me when i call tomorrow. lol!

edited to add: just made a doctors appointment for this afternoon. unfortunatley the only appts they had were right around the time school gets out … otherwise i had to wait until friday. so i have my mom coming by to watch 7 kids! how bad can that go?!?! lol!

i totally forgot the third thing i wanted to gripe about. lol! must have been a real doozy. how this … don’t you hate it when you find a new tv show that is really good … and then they cancel it? or it just disappears and you never know where it went? is it cancelled … is it coming back … do you get to see the end? i have my dvr all loaded up right now … all the new and returning shows that i want to record. but there was already one show that i thought was really good … and after 2 weeks … it’s gone. so sad.

ok … i’m done. i feel better getting all that out. doesn’t help i feel like i havn’t talked to anyone in days. last week i was plugging in my laptop in the kitchen (where i usually have it on during the day to check in here and there) … and one of the 4 yr olds asked me what i was doing. in all seriousness i told him … "i’m turning on my link to the outside world". kind of sad … and yet so true!