maybe i shouldn’t be here posting. but i am. maybe i shouldn’t share some of the stuff on this blog about how i’m feeling. but i do. maybe i should censor what i say. but i don’t. in fact … this blog may be the exact thing that helped bring about this day.
all i know is, it’s been a bad day (totally insert that song from the end of american idol right here). a rough day. an emotional day. sometimes you feel like things are changing … maybe when you’re not ready for them to change. and when they do change … it’s not for the reasons you thought it would be. sometimes you understand the reasons … and sometimes you don’t. this was one of those things that i don’t understand. i mean … i get parts of it and i see where it may be coming from. but i don’t "get it" … and i won’t pretend to understand it.
it’s something that will take some dealing with. and it won’t come easily. it will effect us in many ways … my girls included. i’m taking it very personal … so i know i won’t just let it go and be willing to readily accept it. there are some things that you can’t just overlook and get past. and while i do truely hope i can get past it … i’m not so sure. to me, it questions who i am and what i do … and i hate that. because i know who i am and what i do … and i know it’s all good. not perfect … but good.
and i’m truely sorry to anyone that that has felt the need to question that.
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