i'm leaving in a little over 5 hours. at 4:00AM … which is just absurdly early for me. heading for the airport. my bag is packed … although probably missing lots of things. i have a few warm clothes and a jacket … but probably not enough for the cold weather ahead. my laptop is about ready to get packed up … along with cell phone, ipod, and chargers. joe is at work … so my mom is coming over to sleep here in a bit. they all have instructions for what to get done … and what everyone has going on these next few days.
and my girls … they're tucked in bed and trying to sleep. one is doing fairly well … and one is having a hard time. and it's breaking my heart. seriously … i cannot even tell you. i have tears streaming down my cheeks as i type this. i miss them already … and they're only a few feet away from me. i know they'll be ok … and well taken care of. but makes me sad to know that they're worried. i have never left them … never. they've left me for fun places … but i've never left them. funny thing is … i never want to leave them. i'm happy right here … at home … in our little life.
but with that said … i know i'm going to have a fun couple of days. so glad i get to share this experience with such a good friend. and am looking forward to meeting some of my online friends. we have plans … lots of little plans here and there over the next few days. i hope that will help me relax and not worry too much.
because like i told sarah … "if you don't worry so much and just have fun … the time will go by so much faster"! and i'll be back home before they know it!
Leave a reply to cathy Cancel reply